The Comeback....

It was the month of July and I was surffing Orkut and finding my friends when suddenly I landed on finding Swati's profile. I don't know why google had put a feature of latest visitors in Orkut, she saw my profile in Orkut visitor list and dropped me a friend request which I accepted. Next day I sent her a scrap...
Me: Hi, How are you and mom? Hope I am not disturbing you?
And got a reply next day
She: Hi, I am good and Mom is doing fine. No you are not disturbing me, you never did.
Me: But according to your best friend Eina, I was the most disturbable element of your life.
She: I swear to God I don't know what conversation happened between you and her, and I am kind of angry on you.
Me: I had just sent a mail to your this id, if possible please reply to my questions, so that I can understand the things well.
She: I will.

I was kind of very confuse that what exactly is going on between us? what exactly she had in her mind? I went to the library next day to check my email id for her reply.
Me: Why you told Eina about me?
She: I am sorry about what Eina told you. but you were the one who said that she should know. Sometimes back when she told me about Eina and said that they share everything, I adviced her that Eina should know about me too, otherwise she will feel hurted.

Me: Why you told Eina that you are scared and not me, when I told you in starting that if you feel uncomfortable or disturbed becuase of me, just let me know I will not disturb you?
She: I am sorry but I just kind of told her about you and that you were saying that you will talk to your mom about me and I am not ready for it right now.
She misunderstood me.
Me: Did you ever try to know and understand what I felt when I got to know that you had been disturbed becuase of me?
She: I never knew what she told you. She just told me that you will not message me or call me again.
She: When I sent you a message the very next morning, you told Eina and I was so hurted with that.

Me: Hurted? after Eina scolded me, I never wanted to become the reason of your disturbance again, so I told her.
She: But you never even tried to talk to me or ask me what is wrong?
Me: Neither did you.
Me: Ok, I am sorry. Hows is life now and what about your marriage?
She: Life is great, No marriage, I told mom that I need time, I want to fulfill my dreams first and become something in life before marriage.
Me: Good. By the way you scored good marks in final year too.
She: How do you know?
Me: Don't forget I am a software engineer.
She: yea yea.
"Again the things has started between us and I never know what is going to be happen after this, but whatever it will be I'll face it", I just thought that before going to sleep that day.
To be contd...

The Misunderstanding....

We had a misunderstanding after around twenty days of that proposal incident. But these twenty days were the most wonderful days of my life. Calling her and sending her messages were my high priority tasks. Daily I use to skip from the Office and call her for one or two hours and later continue with the messages. Things were going great, we start knowing each other. She told me that how much she likes the noise of rain and I told her how much I like to be in rain. I told her how much I like kids and their smile, etc. She has started sharing more like sharing the various incidents about her earlier proposals, trip to Goa etc.

It was 1st of May 2008, when we had a misunderstanding. I called her and

Me: Hey Good morning.
She: Hi.
Me: What are you doing?
She: Studying...
Me: What else, how are the exams going?
She: Everything is good, exms are going good.
She: You know what my uncle had brought a proposal for my marriage.
Me: Disappointed, ok then.
She: Nothing. I told Mom that I need time.
Me: Ok.

Actually I become disappointed and scared of losing her. There were lot of questions in my mind, so I said the most studpid thing one could ever say to girl.

Me: I am scared of losing you. I will talk to my mom about you and will request her to talk to your mom. Wait will cal you back.

I didn't call home, rather I took a public transport to go back to my place, I was staying at my friend's place for that night. I thought will go to my placeOn the way, my mind was full of questions whom no one can answer except my destiny, suddently my cell phone ranged, it was an unknown number, I picked the call....

She: Hi.
Me: Hi, who's this?
She: Am I talking to Sachin?
Me: Yes, May I know who's this?
She: Eina, swati's friend.
Me: Hi Eina.
She: Why are you disturbing Swati alot.
Me: What?
She: Why you call her and message her. She don' want to talk to you and you keep disturbing her even in this time when her exms are on.
Me: Hey, I never did that. We are friends and that's why I use to call her and message her.
She: First of all she is not your friend and secondly she don't want to talk to you at all.
She: You know because of you has been so horrified that she is not able to concentrate on her studies.
She: She called me and she was sounding so low. She told me that you want to talk to her mom about marrage, forget it, she don't want to talk to you, marraige no way.
Me: Eina, please try to understand I never had any motive to disturb her, even I asked her before calling her and messaging her.

The things she was saying was hurting me alot inside. My motive was to be with her, not to disturb her and thats why I asked her for the confirmation before calling her and messaging her.
And these things made me so much frustrated and I said.

Me: What do you want from me?
She: You will not call her or message her after this. Promise me.
Me: Ok, I promise I will not call her or message her untill I got one from her.
She: Ok, thanks. Stay away from her.
Me: I will, if she wants.

The whole day I was thinking what went wrong, was she just talking to me because I am her friend's brother or she too consider me as a friend. The Devil in was saying, boy you have been fucked up. This is the end of your love story, but the angel in me was saying boy there has been a misunderstanding, it will be cleared soon. That night was horrable but any how I passed it. In the morning, I got a message from Swati. It was a usual message saying don't keep distance with your loved ones. I called Eina
Me: Hi.
She: Hey.
Me: I got a message from her now, you were saying I am disturbing her then what is this.
She: Don't reply back, I will check with her.

I was waiting for Eina's call, when my message tone rang again, it was from swati.

"Hi, the message was by mistake, sorry to disturb you, promise from my heart that will never message you and disturb you"

"Thats all, this message confirms end of my love story", this was my conclusion, but many times our conclusion is wrong, God is always present to make you smile when you are crying and make you cry when you are happy, maintaining the balance of the nature....

To be contd....

The Proposal Continued....

Me: Hi, its me Sachin.
She: Hey, I know its you. I have your number.
Me: Ok, then why didn't you replied to my message, you always reply to my messages.
She: Sorry, Mom was around that time and later it skipped out of my mind.
Me: dissappointed
Me: Ok, so how's life?
She: I am good and life is going through hell, exams are knocking at the door.
Me: Its ok, I know you will give your best in that.
She: Hope so.
Me: You know why I called you?
She: Yes.
Me: Then?
She: Then, nothing I already told Vasu my answer.
Me: That was expected, I am agree with you on this.
Me: But I just wanted to know, will you accept me as your Husband. I mean if you have anybody else in your life, you can tell me that now, I will backout from here and will never disturb you again.
She: Its not like that, I don't have anybody in my life and frankly speaking, I don't want anybody else in my life except my husband.
Me: If that is the case then I am pretty cool with this. I don't have any problem to talk to any of your family member about this, unless you are agree and ready for this.
She: Actually can't answer you on any of your question right now, I am not ready for marriage now?
Me: I know, I mean this was just my concern that's why I told you what I am feeling, neither of us are ready now, it will take pretty good time, atleast 4 years for me, till then let's be friends and share the feelings and emotions.
She: Yes, agreed.
Me: I know its pretty rude and unfair to talk on this important matter like this, but believe me wanted to do it in different way then this.
She: Its ok, atleast you don't hide your intentions in yourself and that is what matters most.
She: You know I am a bit angry with you on something.
Me: Shocked! angry on what?
She: Why did you told Vasu to ask me that you can call me or not. I believed we are friends.
Me: Its not like that, my problem is I don't want people to become uncomfortable because of me. When you didn't replied to my message I thought there may be some problem, so lets confirm and then proceed.
She: Whatever, but that thing hurt me a little.
Me: I'm sorry for that.
She: Now, if you want to call me any time you can call, but preferably after 9 a.m to 1.30 p.m. that time I can talk to you comfortably because mom will be at school at that time and you can message me any time and if I don't reply just think that I am busy and will reply back a little later.
Me: Ok.
Me: Thanks.
She: Hey please remember no thanks no sorry.
Me: Ok.
Me: Bbye... take care of yourself and mom.
She: I will, you too please take care of yourself.

To be contd.....